noo noo mengoola

you think your good? your fucking nothing, you piece of shit.

your tiny progress and you thought your way ahead?

your a caveman.

matthew 7:3

“Why do you look at the speck of sawdust in your brother’s eye and pay no attention to the plank in your own eye?”

i wish the problem was me and it was i who did wrong.

i stared long and hard at my reflection, only to figure out that i’m just the kind of person that people take granted and advantage of.

guess thats my mandate to carry.

on another note, i’m not emo. i’m seriously pissed off. if i get emo, it’s for 5mins then it’s all rage.

if i don’t say something about my girl, what gives you the right to say it? when you barely even know her? careful with what you say, cause if it indirectly implies something that i don’t like or she doesn’t like, good day mate. C:

dad scolds us(younger sister and i) for not helping around the house. then he went on to say “fucking hell, everyday i have to cook and do housework.”

mom was there. she heard that but acted as though dad was not referring to her at all.

phase 1 is taking too long. i’m getting really sick and irritated of it.

ok, so i went to bbdc to book the final theory test. bleeding nuts, they don’t accept cash now. only nets and cashcard, and, you pay at a machine.

it’s kinda scary cause just last year, you could pay cash and there was a live, human, female, breathing, talking and kinda ah-lianish cashier.

computers are replacing humans. anyway, i needed to pay at least $20 for registration and the final theory test. only had $15 in my nets so because i’m $5 short i’m home now to wait for my dad to pass me his cashcard.

this situation is very very familiar. oh yes, when i first wanted to learn driving, i registered at BBDC and was short of $4, read it here.

ok, so daddy won’t let me drive the car even in the car park because we must obey the rules. fuck.

anyway, daddy nearly got into an accident because when he changes lanes

1. he doesn’t signal early(when he turns then he signals)

2. he doesn’t check blindspots

the motorist was kissing the back bumper of the car when daddy changed lanes. he then sped next to dad, stared, then rode off showing his middle finger.

i told dad about the near accident. then he blew his top, saying how i kept correcting him.

you change lanes without signaling early, you don’t check blindspots and you sometimes drive on two lanes. i’m just trying to help.

the funny part when dad blew his top was that he said i affected his intuition. get real, today was the first time you drove in 3 years.

so you won’t let me drive, rock-a-bye baby. i’mma start the ignition and ya’ll start calling me Legend Racer D.

my name was called. went to look for my dad.

mom started slamming me about not helping around the house. i kept quiet. decided not to argue.

she then ask me if i find playing computer games a waste of time.

i said that i don’t and i find doing housework a waste of time.

all hell broke loose, she started yelling. kept harping that i said that doing housework was a waste of time.

i apologised.

mom kept scolding, dad joined in. then they started saying that if i thought that housework was a waste of time, i should get out of the house and live on the streets.

my dad said that everyday 15mins of housework is enough.(since a long time ago)

i did my 15mins. don’t understand why he was so pissed.

mom, daddy hates cooking. so please cook more often. i think daddy feels unappreciated.

he has to work everyday and yet when he comes home there is no food to eat.

whenever daddy is extremely pissed(with mom), he takes it out on me. then when i manage to channel the anger in the right direction.

mom comes home and daddy speaks very nicely to her. after awhile, mommy yells my name and i get scolding.

stop using the i’m-your-parent-so-you-must-listen-to-me line. it’s stupid. most of the time your being unreasonable.